im crazy in love with pic today :D anyways be my ray of light :D hahas random moi
|| 10:53 pm
yes im very upest.. damn it and it is becuz of my bro..no wait its cuz of me(rollin my eyes) stupid..sucker night..saddening...enough haiz...there is the story.. i came out of the room to take sth..then my bro playin dunno wat rope around me purposely hit me..i did nth..cuz i know my mom will nag at me if i shout at him..btw my mood not v gd tonight..and then suddenly he hit me hard…and I cant take it anymore..and I cried cuz of the anger plus pain…then my mom came..guess what she did?....she scold me first..askin me why I keep comin out then go back..wth..i come out also my fault..WTH larhhs..i got hit and tts my fault..yeah so logical..and all she did was say my brother a bit..does tt mean he got no fault at all?!?!? Everytime u did that to him not really scoldin him at all..and he will tink its okay to do tt.and this will continue..of course u dun really care..cuz he also nvr hit u..haizzzzzzzzzzz..tt eventually led to our routine quarrel ..u said he is young he dint know anything and I sld always forgive him and dun mind him..wth is tt..you told me that for almost 7 years..yeah eversince he was born..you told me tt..7 years later..still the same things.for heavens sake..he is goin to pri 1 next year..its so unfair..i know life is nvr unfair..and u don’t have to remind of me tt fact..i learnt tt in this past few months..but I think this is too much..way too much if I say u baised you arnt happy..but dun u think it’s the truth..if I just shout at him u will say im too much..bully younger siblings..wth..why is it im always at fault…ahhrr..this is so fustratin…plus today my mood alreadly not gd..addin salt to the wound..damn it ..damn it!and if I cry u say u don’t understand why I do tt..damn it..i feel very yuan wang,,I did nth wrong..all I did was to come out the room..i just really dun understand lahhhs…
I was standin at the corridor,,it was raining..it was cooling..the cool breeze is chilling..chilling all the way to my heart..i really felt walkin in the rain..first time of my life..yeah..i hated rain normally i really did..but too bad my mom dint allow..i wanst overreactin okay…to u yes iam..you just dint know how I felt then..a person only cry when he or she is upset sad in pain..heartbroken and blah blah blah..obviously I dun feel happy right then..and u still keep ‘talkin’ wo bu hui xiang kai? Nononono tts so wrong..i do I did..its just this happen so regually..i don’t hate my brother but I really cant stand him being like this..i dint even do a single damn things to him and he hits me..wth..you said I cant hit him because if I hit too hard I might hurt him..and blah blah..and him?!?!? He hit me its okay u mean?its okay to hurt me then huhhh?!?i just don’t get it…
I really want to cry n sob and blah blah…maybe im getting a lil stressed for the exams..but whatever it is..i just want to have a looonnng cry to get everything out.haha Like I said before its mine way of releasing streeesss..but the thing is tt I don’t seem to have enough tears.lols I cried abit then nth comeout le…sldnt have wasted it the other time..haiz… Always be my baby comforted me a lil when I heard it on the radio..and they played just stand up when I just started cryin..so coincidental .lols such a long post duh..geeeeeeezzz
|| 9:41 pm
the string always change in tune doesnt it...? hahahs..i shall be positive bt everythings :D its playin a melody now :D
|| 9:35 pm
sadded lahhhs... whatever has happened has happened..i cant pretend it dint happen..because it made a change in my life.. watever sadddedd
btw i like this pic de background..geeez
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The heart is stronger than you think It’s like it can go through anything And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though Sometimes you want to run away Ain’t got the patience for the pain And if you don’t believe it look into your heart the beat goes on I’m tellin’ you that Things get better Through whatever If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle You need to know If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what Don’t give up THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!
oh by the way i saw a mans hair that is longer than mine today and i dunno sld i be jealous or disgusted hahas more of disgusted bahhs hahas.its so..er hem...hahahs
andand i wish the higer chinese paper dunt be so difficult..hahas but then again is shen lao shi set de..so sld be killer.haiz hahas.is it on sth we nvr read or do b4?ohh myyy...how...
eng lesson we watched titanic. xD iits one of my fav shows i think...hahahs jianhui was like "ms lee skipp the first part lehhs..i want watch the last one hour!" hahahahs.. lol being at upper sec not gd..still prefer the lower sec campus LOLs and the lessons today so boring especially the last lesson------CHEM..sian..
my mom just made lemon juice for me :D itsmakingmesotipsycontented xD
We've run out of words we've run out of time We've run out of reasons really why we together We both know it's over baby bottom line It's best we don't even talk at all Don't call me even if I should cross your mind Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages Let's just call it quits it's probably better So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause 'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed Oh I ask about you whenever I come around I do what I can not to put my business in the streets Last thing I need's another episode Keep conversation short and sweet because 'Cause it's over --it's over by jesse macartney
Friday, September 26, 2008 || 9:58 pm
i dunoooooo......wat is the right word to describe? yeah i dunnooo
|| 9:11 pm
bored to hell today during the lessons and during chem so super scary...ms chew like time bomb lorhs.hahas lucky she dint call me.haha i wan make friend with chemistry!!!hahas
my pinkky book hehehehhs xD bought it with linqi :D
see im so bored..during phyics
actually wanted to go AMK hub de but we be good girls n go study at civic center :D we are good girls...lols
haizz dun really feel like postin.hahas super lazy.LOLs
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 || 8:52 pm
i feel so crapish now LOLOLOL i so wanna crap hehehehhhs xD wat did wanted to say...hmmm... yeah i wanted to say tt i superduper love SOUR things i love VINEGAR and i LOVE lime and lemon:D its so sourrrrreee lols and yeah i also like the smell of my new shampoo :D im not sure its nice to use but i like tt smell it smell like some icecream LOLs.like the strawberry de.haha omg im so bored...
and taking abt SS..haiz i dint finish my paper although i think i write quite fast le.haiiiizzzzzzzz but i did write the typicality..at least sld have 1 mark for reliability skill lalala..anyway over le dun wan talk bt it and the dumb thing is tt after ss got the lit graded assignment how stupid is tt..write ss till so tired still need chong the lit.. my hand seriously cant take it lor.haha..and must finish within one lesson haiyoo..only wrote two page n gave up in the end my hand is like numb lols.. but gd thing is have free two period eng n ss..although ms lee did come but the guys pian her go comp lab agian lols..and played cards hehehehhs (: and i like JIEYING (: she give oout the cards v gd..lOls.i got 3 twos lorhs hahahaha
ate SUBWAY AGAGIN today.geeeee.hehehehehhe i think im so goin crazy..lols anyway edmund go there study chem..so funny lorhs everybody else was eatin... hahahas
aftertt went to find LINQI.(: we had a great talk cum chatt balh blah blah..hahaha ba ba black sheep have u any wool?lolololos ananyyways..after tt we went to lotone.. and went to popular agains..haizzzzzz lols.its just so damn temptin..but i did improve lorhs hahahs..i did buy any pen..only one small hot pink book.. LOLOLOL..linqi also bought a pink de.hahahas.but not hot pink lols..and she bought so much markers n color pens!!! 22 bucks lorh hahahas. my dear linqi must not be so troubled okayys (: i dunno but i think we are quite alike in some ways watever ur feelin..erm is really quite erm dunno how to say..hahas but i guess i know how u kinda feels..hahas jiayou my dear!!! hahahs..think carefully orh but dun too stress over it kayy exams comin le hahas jyjy we both love LITERATURE hahas but i dont love it because oof the love poems and stuff..hahahaha and we both LOVE sweet house hahaha but goin out with her feels v funny cuz i feel as if im younger n more childish LOLOL xD hehehehehhs plus plus plus i love my friends !!!! hehehehehhs :)
i really donno..sld i sld i not?haizzz ifuarecleverudknow idunnodunnodunnodunnodunno.. shallifollowmyheartagain?butimafraid... imreallyafraidandscaredandscaredhaiyooo~
Monday, September 22, 2008 || 9:52 pm
watever watever watever i feelin so frustrated and irritated i guess..dunno eeeee tmr the papers start le..i couldnt help but startin to feel nervous and fidgety jia you EVERYONE!!! haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz lahhs..
and yeah i really hate ppl (shop assistant)when i ask them is there anymore of sth and they willl answer ohh its all there dun hav then means dun have le lorhs.. wth is tt!! so damn pissed at those ppl .lols.hahas.wait i sld complain less .hahaha anyway those ppl sld be more sincere ba..
sth i scribbled in a scrappaper: it is a magical word and it causes both happyiness and pain.. lols forgot wat was i refer tt to tho haha btw i just filed my things so much paper!!! i so think BPGHS is not environmetal friendly.hahas
and y ms tay so angry today is it cuz of jason phua again? haizz...
ohohohohoh and yeah! cheekoon roger ang hung wei is sooooooo funnnnnyy LOLOLOL.. i dont care u hungwei.ahahas must go chalet lorhs and must go 2TWO days not one after all because of u i wasted my energy to make two trips and helped u borrow book lorhs how can u be so ungreatful eh!! hahas hahaha seriously i dunno why i have sth got to do with ck tts like so rediculous hahahaha funny ppl.thanx to roger lahh
and QUEENIE got influnced by me hehehe so high n laugh non stop.LOLLOL
BIG-EYE MONSTERS ARE CUTE.LOLOL hahahs.. janice u seriously look pretty in contacts ans panda mal..ur eyes are enormous hahaha not too bad :D anyway i dun need specs :D lols.haha no need of contacts oso.hahaha
PS.. alan : dun u dare lose my book kayy..hahaha.. xD
au revoir(:
Sunday, September 21, 2008 || 8:17 pm
im not emo (: LOLOLOLOLOLOL :D im not emo(: im not emo(: i thought i saw lin qi at the library today lol but dint find her in the end hahas
tell me tell me sth i dunnno :)
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愛上一个人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害
放棄一个人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎
lols.i copied this frm a email.hahas but its pretty true.
im listening to 遇见 by 孙燕姿 and its makin me totally sad.lols i suddenly remembered how the old chinese songs sound so nice...as in those a few years back i wouldnt change to listening eng song if the chinese songs are as nice as b4 haiyayayasss..i dunno i sld say im sad now or wat this feelin dunno how to describe..kind of like heartach..lalalalala i sld stop listening hahahahas. 再一次拥有..this is another song that will make me super sad lol haha
every song has a story behind it and its ofter touchin...
Baby I don't want to waste another day Keeping it inside it's killing me Cause all i ever want, it comes right down to you I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable
L.O.Ls..i dint know i still have tears...darn it.. wat the hell is wrong with me man..daammmnnn
i want a hug now......and tell me sth funny...
Saturday, September 20, 2008 || 6:23 pm
just remembered that yesterday i spent alot in popular and its like again... and i know u ppl will be not be surprised.hahahs..neither did i but i dint want to buy many of them till end year..guess i was just too sad btw went to IMM with susu esther n janice susu n esther pon NPCC!!! LoLS lalalalalalalllaahhh..was feelin so sad yesterday butbubuttt...lols the icecream was a great cure (: and oso with my friends help.. icecrea.m icecrea.m love it and standard..i will always chooose the chocolate flavour for me..the more chocolatyy it is the better hahas even if some other flavour like peach or yugort is nice i will still eat chocolate.hahas dunno why tho.. took some siao siao pictuures too.lols.will upload it when i get frm janice.lol
ciao
|| 4:57 pm
hahahhs dont be mistaken .. im not emoin okayyys..lols just like this pic thats all.. im perfectly alright.lols i wanted to be happy n high ma..lols
so bored...lols random pics..
for mrs on..gd luck for her :Dmine lantern lolsmy bros.lolseven a perfect circle has a break...
i rather some hearts..nice(:
following are pics tt gave me much memories...i miss liping !!! :Dmemories are just too much..lols.next time then post others
things i like to draw and scribble..especially during lessons (especially english and physic) lol i think i drew this last year..hahahs.did i miss anyone out?lols i lovvvvvveee this wrappin paper..its pink with green POKADOTS!!! pink is love green is beautiful pink+green=fabulous :D fantasic colors!!!!!!!!!!!!! mypost-itnotes!!lols..love it!!!! see..even my pencilbox is pink with green.lololols (x lols..im bored..
erase the sad past you aint hurtin me again.h.a.h.a.s.
hung up the phone tonight, something happened for the first time, deep inside It was a rush, what a rush Cause the possibility that you would ever Feel the same way about me It’s just too much, just too much Why do I keep running from the truth All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know
Do you ever think, when you’re all alone All that we could be, Where this thing could go Am I crazy or falling in love Is it real or just another crush Do you catch a breath, when I look at you Are you holding back, like the way I do Cause I’m trying, trying to walk away But I know this crush ain’t goin away, goin away
Has it ever crossed your mind when we were hanging Spending time girl, are we just friends Is there more, is there more See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take Cause I believe we can make this into Something that will last, last forever, forever -crush by DAVID ARCHULETA (this probably was felt by everyone b4..includin me :D)
thats all for this time... staring up into the clear blue sky..its sparkin once again
Friday, September 19, 2008 || 11:02 am
english is so damn boringg...haiz.. we are playing cards XD wooohooooo~ hehehhhhs(x
anyway one week passed fast isnt it... watever u said is realllyy.... im speechless or rather i must control my mood now.. or i dunno wat i wil write.hahas..dun trust my words
anyways i took alot random pics :D lulu loves photography :D anywwayyyas have to wait till im free to post.LOLLLS
i wanna stay high forever :D there is sth i wanna say..hahahs and that is im gonnna be happy:D yesterday yesterday night i kinda made the decision..lols.. im wanna be real high n happpy linqi..i dun wanna see you so sad like tt day as ur senior..i kinda know how u feels,but of course every situation is different cheer up kayyyas?lols haha lovvvvvvvvve ya:D remmemmber horhs..got anythings muct find me kayys lols must learn frm me kayys be high (: i wanna see u tmr at choir.hehehhhs
my confessions.. im easily distracted i love drawin and art (my form of destressin) i have mood swings i LOVE my friends and ppl around me (: i love takin photographs.especially random n sceneary ...and many many more...lols
QUE SERA SERA.. this it just too true too true... the future is not ours to see who knows what will happen next :D que sera sera..
better in time Going, coming Thought I heard a knock Who's there? No one Thinking that I deserved it Now I realize that I really didn't know If you didn't notice, you mean everything Quickly I'm learning, to love again All I know is, Imma be okay
love leona lewis..its nice
esther n susu n me went to lot one. hahas now i really want to say.. I LOVE MY FRIENDS :D had a fun day. we spent almost an hr in minitoons.lolllls il-o-v-esusu il-o-v-erika il-o-v-ezhengrui il-o-v-eesther il-o-v-epearlynn il-o-v-equeenie il-o-v-ejanice il-o-v-echeryl il-o-v-eqiling il-o-v-eMICKEYMOUSE (x tts myself of course.hehhs il-o-v-emummy :D hope i dint left out anyone..anyways i just love almost everyone around me :) i love u quys..u quys made my day easier.hehhhs
Monday, September 08, 2008 || 12:26 pm
THIS IS GONNA BE A TERRIBLE LONG POST!!!!!
damn it.. i have so much to rant abt yet im at a loss of words now.. let me recall wat to say.. well..i think im havin another mood swing or emotion breakdown its mainly because that im too stressed and worried over my exam thingy? and maybe others.. guys play computer to destress..then my way to destress is crying. sounds weird uh? actually cryin doesnt always be bad ma.. although my mom told me nvr to cry more than 5 mins then it will be bad for the body.. ohh.my thoughts are so randm sia
today is the first day of sch..and its kinda tiring i actually fall asleep during geog lesson madm roshida is away..and that ms tan.. fall asleep until cheryl asked me to go toliet and we went to toilet for almost 15 mins..till bellring went back to class n ms tan dint even said a single thing.....wth is tt after tt there is SPA chem last period..my readin was 22.7.ohmy i feel so messy now.lols then then wat happened? ohh..i came out of lab n saw rika susu n huixian they are goin canteen i think.lol.dun remember who ask me got go cca or not. no im not going..lol.rika dint wanna go too..but huixian wanted susu to go so there was a delima there..i went to take my bag...while susu is decidin whether she sld go or not.hahas.huixian oso decidin i think after that rika saw junyong at our class and she is like hey junyong we not going choir today but junyong ssay sld go later mr yong check attendance..after all junyong i the president of choir haha.then rika wan go again.and in a delima state again..hahahahs.until saw susu n huixian outside the sch gate.LOLs.we saw janice oso.and SO THE FIVE OF US ALL PONE CCA.lOls but i kinda feel thats kinda my fault.lOls.okayy..after exams over then wont skip le..i swear i wont.after all SYF is comin..dont dare sia.. and susu n huixian saw their juniors while walkin to the busstop.lols.they must have felt v guilty at lot one..we were standin in the middle of the lot one lobby decidin wat to eat..in the end we oyabeiyasom to decide..each of us will choose a place and see who decide.and end up is me.and its food junction.. as we were going up the escalater..rika was like dun feel like eatin food junction.everytime eat the same.then i goes.yeah me too..i feel like eatin unhealthy things but its..unhealthy..and cannot eat unhealthy stuff..and rika is like yeah..i oso..unhealthy..then i goes i feel like drinkin bubble tea..and rika was like hey me tooo..and me goes i wan plain milktea..rikais lke ..same!!hahahas.. as we walkin up to food junction..we passed pizza hut and janice suggested we eat tt and all agreeed.LOLs.but i got sth t complain bt them..! their service really sucks lorhhhs!!! but we regretted goin there to eat..although the pizzas are nice.cuz in the first place we skipp cca cuz wan study..but in pizza hut wasted all the time waitin and eatin and after tt chattin..lols and its like so damn damn full..so we go walk walk..waste time aggain.. yey..me and janice found our 'wanted' wallets.mine is red n hers is the gold de.hahas but im afraid i woudlnt want it after some time..but maybe not.afterall that red one really catches my eyes..lalalalalalalalalalala.... after tt i suggested goin to POPULAR..and rika was being tempted to buy many things.hahas okayokayyyy..my fault again..she sldnt go popular with me..but even she agrees with me..that new stationarys does motivate us to do more homework..LOLS.it seriously work for me!!! thats the reasonwhy i have so many many pens..and i feel quilty havin so much.and the problem is tt i usually use once or twice and put them into the converse shoe box..and now its full..not countin all my markers..damn lahhs..and i realised i typed alot now..it seems like a personal recount or sth... ohh..and i feel like stayin up the night to finish my hw..not possible tho and i think im not usin comp for the next few weeks..so this probally the last time i post before exam ends..hahas..thats so longggggggg and that reminds me..mstay made us say out one of our distraction tt made us cant concentrate on our work my turn come and i dunno waht to say becuz everythings seems to distract me in a way or another.i can say i have v short attention span bah..
lols.really and im not kiddin.. if im at home..there is bed computer storybooks and etc to disstract me.i can be doin and writin my homework and suddenly started to scrible around...and there goes my homework..undone. and i will take out my rough paper or scrapbooks to draw..and yeah my diary!!!! i take loads of time writin everyting out and finish..and there are just so many many tiny things at home to distract me oso... if at outside example foodcourt or mac or whatvever..i will takeout my stuff and to display.hahahas and just sit there and stare into blankspace..or study and observe other people.lols.anything except doin hw..tts really sad for now.. and if at library..i could do some work..cuz i cant stare at other ppl..because tts far too weird..although i really wound want to..after maybe do one single hw..i will start lookin out of the window and find interestin things to look at..last friday i was watchiin the construction workers...LOls.its must sound very weird right?..hahas...well.im really peculiar am i? ...or i will just get out of my chair and in search of my fav novels and books..and if im lucky to find sth i like..i can say bye bye to doin hw.. yes..i think i had least out most of m distractions..i think BUT.it will have to stop if i really want to do some work before exam..yes.i will have confidence and determination to stop my distractions..i wan really work hard.hahas..ms tay reeally made me think i guess..i cant be so slack anymore..after all i still want to try my best for my OLEVELS!! i will加油 for myself and oso to all others that want to work hard..jiayou everyone.!!! ohh..i still feel like typin..hahahahhs.im crazyy i think..but i sld really stop...lols so c
ciao and goodnight..
ohh and i break my record of sleepin so late...
Saturday, September 06, 2008 || 10:03 pm
ohh damn i wasted my time doing the scrapbook.LOLS but i find it fun..after all.this is the kind of stuff i like to do.. its quite troublesome..as in tryin to set the scrapblog not as private..hahas tmr must chong hw le..zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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Friday, September 05, 2008 || 10:44 pm
命运总爱捉弄人,谁也不知道明天会发生什么事。
|| 8:38 pm
i really dont feel like posting although i really sld.. BEcause..today was adventurous and many things to post abt okayy so here it goes...hahahs i still feel lazy typing all out sia..hahas
today woke up early.. helped my brother take his queue number.. packed my things for library study.. kayy..fast forward..the study was actually quite boring.. then went to meet my pri sch friends at 12:30 and so many ppl were late..yeah then we realise ms oh is not commin..tts really weird.afterall..she was suppose to be the star.and the main person today but we went to seoul garden anyway..LOLs haha..gernerally we had funn!!hahas.. and i think alan n aaron is just so damn funny cuz me n weekee kept laughing.LOLOLs and im not a vegetarian okayyys..lols.i just like healthy stuff and vege after tt weekee cinny yihui left.lols and there is when i became too high..but tts cause of the ICE CREAM hahahas..i ate one and a half bowl :D so damnn full and me n poh ying v funny lorhhs.. trust me the mint chocolate ice cream sucks.. tho poh ying wasted loads of time and energy to scoop it.hahas its damnn hard and i took a bit and its not NICE!!! hahas..i still perfer the chocolate and straawberry.hahas we had our icecrea;m crazze(: after seoul garden dunno what to do lorhhs i sld emphasis again..CAUSEWAY POINT is seriously B-O-R-I-N-G.. LOLs..so we went to timeZONE to take neoprints causeway really sucks la..even the neoprint shop closed down..haizz and we had to sneak ellie in..cuz she wearin sch uni lols..the process of neoprint is damn stupid..hahas we are so nooooooooooobbb..lOls the effect obviously not tt nice too.. after ttt oso dunnooo what to do.sad but decided tto play basketball lOls..alan and aaron gor gor since when did i have two brotherss?hahahahas hiazz..my basketball really suckk lorhhs hahas..thanks for the cheering alan and aaron and sita..lols i must have made u all v thirsty.hahas paiseh la..lols
OVERALL..i really enjoyed myself with u guys!!hahas well..i sld keep more contact with them because actually after all these years..i think we are closer and i really hated siling for a period of time cuz i really missed XINGNAN. however now i think its great to know the siling ppl..hahas.maybe its fate? but i still miss ying ying n liping n hema (: we sld comeout more often right?lols i agree with sita..we sld make all the s9 ppl comeout oonce everytime the people tt come back are all the same where are others?yongqi?LOls