204[x 3CLIP2E[x CHINWEN HUIYI LINQI MR WU PEARLYNN QIWEI QILING RIKA SUSU❤ SANDY WILLIAM XIAOLING XAVIER ZHENGRUI

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i carry your heart with me ♥ i'm never without it

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i broke the record of buying 5 pens today..damn
and i really regret it..
firstlyy..i dunno if i will even use it..
secondly..it did not cheer me up):
thirdly..my pencil case v full liao


ohh..ohh its just so damn great..
the timing was just so damn nice..
haizz..u dun have to add salt to the woundd..
damn...fine..i know ur disappointed with me..whatever
if u thinik im so bad...then go find someone else be ur daughter..
u dun have to emphasis tt...
to be honest..im disappointed at myself to..whatever
u win lorhhs...im defeated..fine..
u said u did not hit me on purpose..so funny..so real
i feel like rollin my eyes thousand times..
so real..yeah
u saw me walk past and swing the rope..not on purpose right?
then i barely touch u and u go cry after mummy dearest..
u pro lorhh..ur actin skill super good sia..go get oscar lahh
u winnnnnnn..happy?
is not i dun let u..once and twice..now u are usin it like a weapon
my mood already so bad today...
now they say i dun treat u gd enough..im childish to always fight with uu
tt i cant just act like a big sis and be more forgiving..
argg..damn u...i regret askin for a sibling
i rather to be lonely and single...
even if i wan one..i wan a sister..
speck frm ur heart..is u bully me or i bully u?wth.
u dun like me?FINNEE!! like i like u like tt..arggg
plss lahh..all i wan is u stayin a metre away frm me.
and dun touch me..then nth will happen
its so damn unfair..obviously not my fault
and again n agin they say is mine..damn u
not to mention u cut my hair 3 times! and all they do is tell u not to do tt agin
tts totally bias...unfair..why is life so unfair..
seriously lahh..did i do sth unforgiving im my past life?
if got then tell me so i have a chance to do sth bt it..bcuz i dunwanna suffer anymore..
im so pissed today..by so many small things tt got stuck with me
i cant controll it..haizz..
its so faustrating..i wanna scream because i cant cry..

u...
like i said before..u are not exactly handsome or what
so dont comment ppl ugly..because u have totally no right
unless ur zac or david beckhem..if not shut up

u...
sld be more sensitive...
even im more sensitive...

u...
sld learn how to take a hint..
sorry but i dun think im interested
oh my..how did i get into this..

u...
sld do what u are suppose to do and not leave to others

arggggggg..i dunno how long i can hold anymore..damn
just hopefully it can disappear into thin air
i oso wan...disappear frm this bazzar life...
i hate this...
up and down ; round and round ; history repeat itself
im tired..i wont fight back anymore..





if even breathin is so hard..then i want to stop breathing..







i'll take it as a good sign..yeah..hopefully
haizz..how i wish i cld spill everything out..
yet..its no longer possible..there is a limit to what i can say
i dunno why..my heart hurts today..i fill choked and cant breath
ohh gosh..that unsettling feeling haunts me makin me having cold sweat..ahh..i wanna scream..
im afraid..wth..





ohh..everyone around me seems to be changin skin


ohh gosh..
im gonna say im tired again..maybe for the last time
(i have been sayin tt almost in every post now a days and sseriously i hope i would stop saying tt)
lol.i slept at around 1 yesterday and woke up almost 1 pm oso.hahas.exactly 12 hrs of sleep
but i still feel so tried..my muscles so sore
i hate tt feeling...wahtever..
yeah so yesterday was the choir SONGWAVE concert :D/D:
like i said, im not particularly excited about it,watever
tt probably explains my down-ness
the overall performance was okayy i guess as in the first paart
it was much more better than the rehearsal we had in the afternoon
and mr yong n mrs on so FUNNY lorhs
especially their expression..
yeah so smile but its more like laugh
so if u see us tring tto laugh n then cannot tt funny face
then its their fault..
especially the part after the lights dim out when they are not suppose to
mrs ong made tt 'oh whatever smiley shrug'
too bad yu cant see it.hahas
shinjiru(:
lalalalala lala lalala lalala lalalala lala lalalalala lalalala lala lalalalala-ah~
hahas.if u know what its the code here.lol

and then the alumni n the three guys
i think they were great(:
jiayou(:

the second part..haiz...no comments
maybe i tried too hard to concentrate and in the end lose it.geez
the first song not tt bad i guess dint make too much obvious mistake
its the last song!!!damn it lahh
i sldnt have look at suzanna lee who is at the side..so distracting
argg..kayy i screw it..haiz lol

we love you mr tom chan :D
your words are encouragin
yey..we will do u proud at least we hope we did
wow..lol touching speech.before the performance
kayy maybe im exaggerating

Dexter:haha.im SERIOUSLY not angry.really.i even ate the second bun okayy.LOLs im upset for other reasons.and the concert dont mean tt much to me its over anyway.dun worry le lahh.i swear im not angry.hahas











damn...
its freezing cold..
very very very cold....
my heart seems freezin and my breath are cold ~
its it because of the weather or wat?
haizzz..im going crazy again
i sld go some mental hospital...control plss...
just when i thought that period is over , the demons came back...
im not suppose to feel this way before the concert sld i?
i suppose no...i sld be happy and excited
and yet for some reasons im not
and im terrible afraid of makin mistake tmr n she will scream her head at me
unbelievable..u just assume things which might not be real
BITCH!!! scold ppl upon ur assumption..
aggggg..im damn angry lorhhs
and oso damn tired...
i only realise i dint eat anything today around 5 pm..
wats wrong with me exactly?
haizz

i may not be tt strong but neither am i a baby
pls dun keep me in the dark.gezz just tell me somethings okayy.
.i dun wanna be hanging in the air
and dun suddenly tell me things that i cant absorb fast
if u wanna say..say everythings..
tt sms was shocking...):

i know this is a emo sad post..whatever
but im lazy to write this stuff in my diary too
and the black will make me even sad...

charcoaled...




btw.. my ❤ heart is lost D: D: D:


xoxoxo






ahhhhhhhhh
im v v v v v tired...
TIRED...
i feel like postin so much but too tired..
ahhhhgg
the choir pract end only at around 6.30
the dance really tiring..first time
cuz mr yong want us to dance with energy..lols


kayy so this is the funny stuff i siad yesterday
haha..it might be lame to u but it cheered me up (:

Why Chinese shouldn't have Christian names? Here are the reasons:

Anne Chang
(Mandarin)- Dirty

Anne Chin
(Mandarin) - Keep quiet

Faye Chen
(Mandarin) - Dusty

Jane Tan
(Mandarin) - Frying eggs

Henry Mah
(Mandarin) - Hate your mum

Paul Chan (Mandarin) - Bankrupt
Nelson Tan (Mandarin) - Bird laying eggs
Leslie Tong
(Mandarin) - Rubbish bin

Connie Mah
(Cantonese) - Call your mother

Macy Koh
(Cantonese) - Never die before

When come to Hokkien dialect, there are plenty good ones:

Lucy Leow (Hokkien) - You are dead
Corrine Tai
(Hokkien) - Poor fellow


Carmen Teng
(Hokkien) - Leg hair long


Danny See
(Hokkien) – Wait her to die

Rosie Teng
(Hokkien) - Screws and nails

Pete Tsai (Hokkien) - Nose droppings

Carl Cheng
(Hokkien) - Buttock

Monica Cheng
(Hokkien) – This one need no explanation!!


lol i still remember i have ateacher in my pri call
MR NELSON CHONG
鸟生虫..hahahahahahhhhhs
funny lorhh



can u tell me what is going on pls?
haizz its coming back..damn..
&you really believed me?lol..
you dont understand i dont understand no one understands

xoxoxo


ahhh..tired
lol..went to far east (:
tirringgg...
still i dun think we went to all the shops..
everytime there seems to be shops i dint see before

hahahaha..kayy.the next post will be sth extremely funnny
LOLs
andd yey..tmr no need go early..





i saw a HUGE INSECT TODAY!!!
lol..nahh actually is a dragon or iguana
goshh..its hairstandin lorhhs
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
why our sch have all the weird weird animals??
there was an owl before..geez

and i cut my hair):
not tt there is much difference
but i can feel it..cuz layered
i sldnt have lorh..now i regret it
aiyooo....i hate cuttin hair..!!!
hatttttttteeeeeee it
now like too little..aiiiiii
fine i shall not be obsessed over it...
since there is no single time when i like my haircut
so i sld probally expect this

p.s im not late todayy
yeepeeeeeee

commitment is such a big thing....tt make thing work or not work..
ohh lol what a weird reason..

xoxoxo


ohh myy..
you cant believe when i woke up this morning lorhhs
hahahhh..
its 7.10!!!
when im suppose to reach sch at 7..
myy..miss lee is angryy..
sry ppl...
and im only out of my hse around 7.19
and i managed to reach sch on time..
its simply a miracle...really it is..i can even feel it.lols
thanks to jess n branda..thank loadss

its not simply just a miracle..
it proved sth..hahaha
jesus..i love eu!!!!
amen...thank you again..
i know u are always by my side..im sry if i did not trust u sometimes..
today proved everythings....i know i know..
geezz..

la la la = i love you :D
lalala lalala lala la lalala la lala..aiyaas..forgot the rhythm le
hehehehehhhhh..lovvvvvvvvvvvve ya
not much i can do..
haha..im a bit siao during choir again
lols..but then again..since when im not..lol
but today no zhengui pei wo
sadd):
cuuuuzzzzzz..im in the third row n she is in the second
andd first part of the practice is in another room dancing..
and ohh yeah..
ppl..we are gettin much progress :D
jiayou jiayou!!!
we can make it de!!!
last week is still like so horrible + vegetable lorhhs

kayy.. go slp le..better not be late again..

with many many lovvve,
xoxoxo


woahh..
i sld have listened to to my instinct sia..
i could only count myself lucky..gee..or sth bad might have happened

ahh..tmr must reach sch by 7..oh my..
im afraid i will be late lorhh
geez i dunno what to post..

xoxoxo


ahaha!
woah..i sld be actually sleep now cuz im super tired..
yesterday the speech day was the reason..
dint get to sit alot..geez.and the stupid shoes is tiring to walk in.haha
the performance wasnt exactly bad..but definitely have room for more improvements
lol..and some movements are screwed up..
but the sopranos died not bad..yey! cheers!!!
yeah..so i think the choir sld reallly work hard next week
jiayou jiayous...cheers!!!!we are not gonna let the instructor n seniors down.are we?

hooohooo
and i woke up today late..only when huiyi called me
ahhh..super duper duper tired
went to meet huiyi jianhui cheryl the twins and tinghui
for the cheers.yey
eclipse jiayous!!!!!
we gonna to win!yey!

kk..short post..sleeping time.hehhs

xoxoxo


ohmoigodd!!!!
i cant believe im so out of control this morning..haizz
history always repeat huh?geez
emotion breakdown...geee
whats wrong with me..it just so out of control lorh...saddd lahhs
kayy..i admitt tt im super emo in the morning..
and then we played badminton during pe..make me extra sad..
..aiyooos..i feel like a fool now..

after tt there is choir..
and i just realise my attitude towards choir is so much different from last year
its like a 360 degree turn..lols.and my attendence ever since feb is like full lorhh
miracle sia..
i dunno..but being at choir today made me feel so much better
and tts seriously zhengruis credit.hahhas
she make me laugh like siao lorh..or rather i made both of us laugh like crazy
muhahahahah...and stop poking me lorh..LOLs
hanks to rikka and zhengrui..they make me think tt choir is actually fun
yeah..so im gonna practice hard next week..to worth the effort
like kaiting said..put in heart and soul.just for a week
i hope the eight of us willl....really practice hard
lol..


sometimes we just need to know our piorities .. which come first ...
yeah..i sld....

xoxoxo


if the tears are meant to fall .. then no matter what ..you cant stop it
it will just fall no matter how hard i tried to hold back..
i told myself i will be strong and wont cry..but i still did D :
is it just meant to be? or?
i hasnt cry for a long time and i just thought i wont in a loong loong time to come..



there is a choice for everything..yes there is and the smallest tiny decision/choice i made just now made things pretty much clear. its not the choice i thought i would make..its just..i cant do it... its not im not firm enough..or really am i not? i dunnno...kayy..writing this out make me feel so much better.yey

kayy..so today the cboys won the nantional championship..whoohoo.
congrats..its first time in history..
so vlee retiring huh??lol...no comments

anyway because of the speech day rehearsal i dint go
but its pretty okayy..the rehearsal kinda boring..cuz have to wait so long for our performance
(we are the last...zzzzz)
but then thank god there is the juniors to entertain me.LOLLOL hahahahh
they are so funny lahhs...especially the sec one girl(forgot her name.paisei)
yeahh yeahh yeahh...dening wont make us believe u u know?LOLs
have then means have mahhs..lol
then we started to chat bout many many things
if u ask me i think the topics are rather random.lols

whyy..whyy cant i just do it...(im random huh?)lol

on the unpainted canvas of the rest of the life
paint the path filled with light
friendly faces left and right
paint the stars to reach for
paint ur heart as an open door
on the unpainted canvas paint ur future brii-ghht...
(this just suddenly came to my mind)hahhs
and i know im just right! hahahahahs







ohhMYgoshh manx..
the listening compre is so diffcult lorhh
woo...wanna cry liao lah
shen lao shi lied lorhh..he siad it will be v easy..
v funny..easy like real..
especially question 5 and 6
most ppl have different answers..
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...how how how...
kayy..i quess i shouldnt be too upset since its over anyway

LOL.btw i changed my blogskin a little..
pls comment which is nicer..now and the previous green background

i had my customer as well.hahhahhs..
and she wanted seven..woahh..LOL
hey ppl..if anyone wanna cards..can find moi.hehehhhs

and MISSION ACCOMPLISHED[x
hahahahhs.i finish selling th 5 choir tickets
and if anyone atill intersted in going
puhlease find rikka zhengrui or eunice :D
buy frm them!!! support us but dun laugh at us!!!
hahahahahahh...so sit as back as possible bah.LOL

kayy now i shall post some random piics on the mass dance tt day




haiz..i dint start on my homework!!saddedd
morning spend my time slack around and a card for my bro's friend
lol.its her birthday today!hahah
she had a bbq party.lol
and i very bored lorh..kinda of
as in im the oldest "kid" there..haha
lalalalala




yada yada...
kayy..im updateeing finally
lol..today is a 'fast' day.haha
most eclipser dint stay in the class for the whole dayy
lol.first lesson is PE then PHY(at lab) thenREAD(com lab)lastly HMT(at 3m1)
ohh btw the morning assembly today is so funny lorh
there is a mixed up message.hahahahahh
as me n queenie going to the assembally ground,everyone was awalking back
saying there is wet weather programm
lols.then queenie ask me if we sld go back..since we have pe in the 1st lesson
haha..then i say just go hall there lorh
but the asembaly there already got so many pppl
lol lol..me n queenie keep laugh..haha haha hahah
kayy maybe nnot tt funny..

afternoon got choir dance prac followed by mass dance then speech day rehersal
woahh..busy sia
the rehersal so paisei lahhs..tt ms lee down there keep smilin so enthu
then v little ppl come lorhs..and the front row audience so sacarstic..
u dont like it doesn mean mean u have to show tt face
irritatin...grrrrrr

haha.after tt went to lotONE with RIKKA
lol..we talked bout makin cards
hehh..u can find me if u wan.lol
we like to do same things .LOL
art and craft are out favv..
hmm..i shall do a card tonight..dun feel like doing hw

lalalalalalalahhh...